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I'm here I did not sleep until the new year, much to my dismay. I do not feel any better today then yesterday, and if it is possible to feel worse, I believe that is the direction I am heading in. It makes me crazy too. I wanted to go with the kids to the mall, and have time with them that I do not normally get. In fact I do not recall the last time we all went to the mall. For me, I have only been to the mall twice this year with Crystal while she picked up something quickly. Elsewise I haven't been to the mall in years. Literally, years. I don't know why. Fuck it, there musta been a reason right? I hope the kids are having fun there though. A few days offline has helped me out of a potentially unhappy position. Enough said basically. Just know that I climbed out of the pool altogether, so Im not sinking, nor swimming, just outta it. And I get so cranky when I am sick that I can say what I may otherwise have trouble saying as I hate to sound rude or mean to my friends and those who I care for. Today I had no trouble saying Im not gonna do this, no offense but I just cant. I dont know why that seemed so difficult to say a few days ago, but he understood and was very cool about it. I miss the baby. |