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I've been a fool Today was long and exhusting. I drove Lisa to school as it was pouring rain. Then ended up an hour early at my own school. Class was boring, then I went to the hospital to see steve. I demanded that the nurse do something about his infiltrated arms, and that she requested to the Dr either a Pic line or central line, and to start some lippods. His body has had no nourishment for going on 9 days now. Sheesh. Byron broke off our romantic relationship tonight. We will remain friends. But I don't know what to say to him or how to act right now. I feel this avalanche of emotion inside but refuse to let it out. Lisa took it really hard. I don't know what I was thinking when I let her call him Daddy and put that much stock in what turned out to be a classic May - Dec romance. I won't do that again but it doesn't help matters at the moment now does it. And I think I knew it was coming because ever since I left to go up to the great Gainsville adventure with Amy and the baby, things have been different between us. He has been more distant, very much less affectionate, etc. But I keep lying to myself trying to believe it was just me imagining it. It wasn't. I wish him all the best etc etc etc (insert here all the things one is supposed to say at such time) |