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Ozarks Tuesday night Amy and the baby spent the night with me. It was very nice and I took a bunch of pictures of her. It was also very painful knowing that was the last time I would have with her before they move. They will be moving in about 12 hours from now the time I am currently writing this entry. Oh why am I writing this entry at 5:15 a.m? Good question, I am glad you asked. Yesterday the idiot had to go up to Gainsville to a Dr's appt. He took with him , Joshua. His appt was at 10:30 a.m which meant he should have been home no later then maybe 3ish. Crystal picked me up for school and also drove me home. Idiot and Joshua did not arrive here until almost 10 p.m. I was worried sick. I thought they must have been in some sort of accident etc. I was pacing and tapping my fingernails, really nervous. Finally they walk in and idiot looks like death warmed over. Joshua was fine, thank goodness. Idiot mumbles "please help me". This is what happened, right after leaving the dr's office , he started getting really sick. Throwing up and passing out. So they had to keep pulling over and letting him recouperate, because obvisiously Joshua cannot drive the van home. He is afterall only 11 years old. I just spent most the night at the hospital getting idiot admitted. I sat there for what seemed like endless hours and thought. I think I should have been a nurse, considering I have so much fucking experience in this anyhow. I must have missed my calling.I wont go into all the details of my qualifications, but honestly, between the kids and idiot, I have plenty. More then I ever wanted, that is for sure. Amy is moving in just hours. I want to panic and I want to cry. I want to say to her "Please don't go" but I cannot do any of those things. All I can do is learn to let my daughter go and hope for the best for her and the baby. That sounds simple but believe me it is not. Am I the only parent whose child has willingly moved to the ozarks? .... Why? |