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friday After much bitching and complaining done in my ear from my mother and Joan, I explained to my daughter, that she can keep calling and crying to her grandmothers all the day long, it is NOT going to change how I feel about this move. In fact all it is going to do is estrange me from them as well. And right now I don't care. I have also told them basically the same thing, that no I do not have to be reasonable, no I do not have to accept it and no I do not have to pretend I am okay with any of this. Neither can explain to me excatly what part about my daughter taking my granddaughter to live in the ozarks is ok. The town has a population of less then 500 people. For gods sake it doesnt even have a high school, most likely for the fact there is no need there. 8th grade is a full education in the ozarks. They don't have mail service. I also let her know that I don't want to see Jamie and I don't want him over here. He offically quit his job, I am thinking the 4 days of no show no call pretty much let them know anyhow, but now he is pissed cus they wont give him a recommendation. Uhm maybe he does belong in the ozarks. Dana is supposed to be spending the night here on Thursday night. This was Amys idea not mine. I will be glad to have her overnight, but in my opinion it is just going to make friday more bittersweet then ever. Friday... they leave on friday. Who fucking decides on a saturday to move and does it a week later to a different state, a complete different climate, with a premature baby that hasn't even had all its tests yet? My stomach has been in knots all day/ night. It hurts. I think its just from stress. Amy came over and visited me with the baby earlier. She wont remember me. She wont know that her other Grandma has threatened her life, or didnt come visit her in the hospital, or come do a bedside vigil when she was in critical condition and flown to another hospital. She wont know about the website I made for her, so people could stay updated on her condition and see her pictures. No, all she will know and remember is that bitch who when she thought Dana would be disabled wanted nothing to do with her. I have mind to stay in a bad mood for a long time. |