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Quitting school My day has been filled thus far with ups and downs. Lets start with the ups. I got a 94 on the midterm that had the impossible to write code. And on the other mid-term for weds class I got a 105 on it. The five was due to extra credit points. I am trying but I am not coming up with anything else good to write about at the moment. Perhaps because there isn't anything. Oh wait yea there is. On weds Crystal and I are going to volenteer in the making of 700 thanksgiving plates for local elderly and shut in's, then we will deliver several of them. That will be nice. And I also signed up to write out 100 xmas cards for old folks in retirement homes in the community, they must be filled out personalized. That too will be fun, Lisa is going to help me write those out. On to the current reason of my misery. It is time to repackage the student loans at school. Which means that come Jan there will be $135. monthly payments. Which up til now my Mother and Bob have been making for me. I spoke with my Mother today and she basically said shes not making anymore school payments as she cannot understand why I am still in school etc etc. I guess the upside of this would be I don't have to worry about making a decision as to what to major in , in the graduate program, however on the downside that would be because I may very well end up having to quit school and therefore not finish getting the Bachelor's degree. I just do not have the money for the payments, I am having a hard enough time feeding my kids and keeping a roof over our head as it is. For example, yesterday I had a package of thin steak that was on sale for $2.89, when I bought it I thought it had 3 pieces in the package. It didn't, there was only two. But I had nothing else to make with it, so I made them for Lisa and Joshua and took a bite out of each one before serving them. That was my entire food portion for yesterday. When I got to school today Crystal had brought me a sausage bisquit from McDonalds, I devoured it heh. I dont mind skipping meals, or going without a lot of things, but there is not really much else I can budget away to make this additional payment monthly. I am $200 behind with the landlord currently, I have 2 months of electric bills looming and on extensions, my credit card was cancelled cus I couldnt afford it, my cell phone the same thing. Oh and there is Christmas coming up.... yay. Ooog. I don't know what the hell to do. I feel like I have completely failed. Oh well if it doesn't work out, at least or in the very least I proved to myself that given the chance I could have made it through college with honors. |