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Just a bad mood I got to school this morning after writing a long entry here, feeling a little apprehensive about the whole being so far behind in school thing. When I walked in I was greeted by Barbie, yes that is her real name and no she doesn't adhere much to pink things (shame really). Barbie was overjoyed to see me, this was a little weird. Then some lady whom I have never seen before came out of one of the offices and started crying... literally crying.. tears just streaming down her face. I didn't know what the fuck to make out of that , til she started talking to me and telling me how she is a very emotional person (yeah... she really didn't have to explain that, I kinda got that already). Well she was crying over idiot and Dana. Very fucking strange. It made me feel almost ashamed that someone who I don't even know can show more emotion about events in my life then I can. She kept telling me that even though she didn't know me, everyone around the school has been talking about it and we were all in her prayers. Ooog. That should have made me feel grateful I suppose, but it just put me in a bad mood. I hate my business in the rumor mill not to mention strangers bawling. All I could think was this woman would have thrown herself in front of a train had she seen and heard some of the things I have in the past month. Tomorrow is Byron and I's 5th month anniversary. Yay. I called him earlier in the evening at work, just to say I love you. He was busy and there was people around so he didn't say it back. It made me feel weird about it but I understood. I would prolly react the same way. I know I am hard for him to explain and I really do respect that. I think it affected me moreso because I have been so damn sensitive lately, all I have longed for is him to pull me into his arms and say "Don't worry baby, everything is gonna be fine". Ah well its a mood and like all other moods this one shall pass too. I had new keys made from the landlord today. They had to actually change the lock on my mailbox cus they didnt have a spare for that one. I got my report card from last term today. All A's ... yay. Even though I knew that was what it would be, it is always nice to see it in paper form. Crystal got all A's too. She was really excited about it. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me tonight, but I am in a rotton mood. I can't even stand being around myself at the moment, now that is pretty bad. I think Amys phone call earlier is what sent me the rest of the way from irritiable to flat out bad mood. Bleh, I don't even want to talk about her at the moment. |